Friday, February 22, 2013

Did I finish my exams ?

Yesterday marking 21st February 2013 was the day that I finished my last exam of my MS degree program in the US. After completing my exam I had mixed feelings, I was happy that I managed to fulfill the requirements of my degree program at the same time I was sad and disappointed that a very good chapter of my life came to its closing. While coming out of examination hall and leaving toward my apartment I took a while to look back at these eighteen months that I spent studying for my graduate degree. During this period I had moments of happiness and moments of sadness, moments of frustration and moments of fulfillment, moments of success and moments of failure, moments of stress and moments of relief, no matter what circumstances I had to face them all alone because I opted for all these challenges and I had to accept them in order to accomplish my career goals, because I knew and I believed that if there is no pain there is no gain. Deep into the past feelings of my academic life all of a sudden the silence of my thoughts and imaginations were broken by my school's clock bell and I realized that the time for mid-day prayer has arrived and I should take a moment to express my gratitude to his almighty for his blessings, no doubt without his mercy I wouldn’t have been able to achieve all what I have achieved so far. While in prostration a sudden feeling and thought came in to my mind that broke my pride and sense of accomplishments. I realized that I have still not finished my exam, oh yes the real exam; hence it is still too early to brag about the achievements and accomplishments. Now you might be wondering which exam am I talking about, well I am talking about the exam of this life, the exam that has a very just examiner who grades everything very precisely that even a small and single act won’t be missed. The exam, the result of which will really change our destiny, the exam the success of which will grant us an immense reward and the failure of which will give us a severe punishment. Yes, this exam continues until the last breath of our life and we need to work hard to succeed in it.  Please don’t take me wrong , I am not underestimating the achievements that we get from our academic and professional examinations , however all the success in these small exams prepare us to act responsibly and be more sincere toward the real and BIG exam.

Written by Tooryalai on Friday night 10:45pm.